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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Current mood: amused

My fave thing about MySpace right now is getting these “personality snapshots” of all the people who are into bondage.

For years and years, through my bondage diary and websites and stuff, many people got to know me at a personal level, but at the same time I didn’t get to know many of them.

Every time someone trades a friend link with me here, it’s so fun to go to their page, look at their pictures, read their latest blogs, see what movies they like, etc. Get a sense of them. I love that!

We all have parts of us that are just so mainstream, mundane, regular, normal, typical — and then parts of us that our culture thinks are so keeeeenky. lol!

Friday, January 20, 2006
Current mood: warm and fuzzy

Actually, I don’t have any drawings of a sexy big-breasted bunny tied up, myself. But I wanted anybody reading this to have a positive mental image in mind first…

Most folks know I’m into bondage and force fantasies. My lesser fetishes don’t come up much. Some years ago I was spending a lot of time looking at anthropomorph art sites (animals drawn kinda like they’re human, usually looking sexy). I’ve always been into sexy bunny-lady art, sexy cat-lady art, sexy fox-men, sexy wolf-men, like that. Anyway my boyfriend Jon finally pointed out to me that I was an anthropomorph fetishist. (A “furry”.) Dunno why I didn’t realize it myself. I’ve always known I have a fetish about men wearing gorilla suits, though.

Annnnyway I explored the ‘furry’ sites, forums, and virtual worlds, but didn’t feel self-actualized with it, so I kinda put it aside. Acting out a bondage fantasy is easier than trying to become a sexy bunny-woman, you know?

When my dad died in June, he left behind a science fiction novel that I’m working on getting published in his memory. I didn’t read the manuscript until after he died, so now I can’t ask him if *he* was a furry. The book is about a ‘planet of the man-wolf’ and a main character is a sexy woman-wolf who ends up having sex with a terran male…!

Yesterday I was revisiting some furry sites and found out that there’s now a furry area in Second Life — one of the high-end virtual worlds. I went in there last night and spent a few hours trying to figure out the program while helpful people handed me bunny ears and bunny tails to try on. Around midnight there was a crowd of furs hanging out and two virtual cats - very sexy curvy furry cats - were dancing. They were 3D, they were moving, and they were ‘live’ because a real person was running each one. I found this to be a real visual turn-on, and when they stopped I was tempted to say “please don’t stop dancing!”

It brought back memories of an adult comic I used to buy in college - “Omaha the Cat Dancer”. About a sexy kitty-lady who was an erotic dancer and she and her various friends (fox, wolf, etc) had lots of sex…

Watching the sexy cats dance made me realize I would certainly enjoy being a virtual sexy bunny. So I guess I’ll need to look into assembling a character. Then of course I’d have to make some visits to the BDSM communities there to see what can be done with putting a sexy bunny-lady into bondage.

Oh, and since I kinda promised:

See this sexy bunny http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/caroo/ticklebunnysmall.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/caroo/caroo.htm

See funny-bunny business http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/hypercat/boundbunny2.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/hypercat/hypercat.htm

See a cuddly catlady http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/gearlock/zaft-sub-kitty.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/gearlock/gearlock.htm

See a foxy lady http://us-p.vclart.net/vcl/Artists/Dynotaku/Sketches/FireFox_1.jpg at http://us.vclart.net/vcl/Artists/Dynotaku/Sketches/index01-by-date.html

See a foxy slave http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/ironbadger/grvixkneal.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/ironbadger/ironbadger.htm

Bunny crotch http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/karavan/030901.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/karavan/karavan.htm

Stacked bunny-lady http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/pelzig/TrixiLopBD.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/pelzig/pelzig.htm

Sexy mouse-lady http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/polecat/WageSlave.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/polecat/polecat.htm

I love when the ears go down and back http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/_others/boundbunny.jpg at http://www.bondofox.net/galleries/_others/others.htm

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P.S. Since current U.S. gov’t and society is eager to confuse issues of sexuality, I just want to mention to those unfamiliar, that a fetish for real-life animals is referred to as ‘zoo’. ‘Furry’ fetish is about anthropomorphic characters - fantasy/art creatures - not rw animals.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Current mood: amused

Last year a family friend asked me for my bio. They didn’t know I was into bondage so I had to come up with a bio that completely omits the main thread of my life. I also had to pretend that I don’t have two life partners instead of one. I came across the “expurgated” bio again this morning and thought I’d show y’all a copy of it:

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I was born in Michigan in 1963. I was the daughter of two teachers (Philosophy, English). Growing up I was heavily into the arts, spending a lot of time in orchestra, chorus, sculpture, etc. I went to college and majored in Music Composition for two years. (My primary instrument was violin.) I decided I didn’t have enough talent to be a composer so I abandoned that major. I finished up a different university with an interdisciplinary humanities Bachelor’s.

Michigan had a depressed economy at the time. I held various jobs such as carnival barker, wedding reception quartet, factory assembly worker, rental agent, bookkeeper. I got a chance to go to California to do magazine editing and video production, so I moved. After the internet became popular, I taught myself HTML (website building) and began designing and running websites.

Here in California I met and married my husband Eric. He used to be a history teacher.

Recent years were mostly taken up with my family’s crisis when my niece was kidnapped. She was gone for nine months before we located her, went to Greece and recovered her. Most of the Lilac Lane website grew up out of those events, and in a lot of ways LilacLane.com serves as an organic biography of my experiences:

http://www.lilaclane.com
Emotional Abuse: I put this site together because my sister was terrorized by her ex-husband.
The Left-Behind Parent: I made this site to help other people deal with it when their children are kidnapped.
Missing Child Tessie: While Tessie was missing, this was a very large website, but after we got her back I changed the site to just one page.
Stalking site: I was a victim of stalking when I was in college, and my sister was later stalked too, so I made this site.
Alex’s Funny Bone: We’re childless, so I made a website about my dog.

I guess my most important work is the Emotional Abuse website, which had 330,000 visitors last year. Sadly, many of the people visiting the site are teenagers who are being verbally abused by their parents.

Currently my husband and I live in the San Fernando Valley. We’re both self-employed so we work 7 days a week. We have two little dogs that we take to the park for walkies whenever we can. I’m now 42.

Sunday, January 08, 2006
Current mood: amused

Someone just sent me this message: “Do you actually talk for yourself? See, I wonder if you do this as a business or if you actually enjoy this as well…”

I get questions like this a lot. People think I’m not real, or not really into bondage, or they think I’m lying about running my bondage sites and that actually some man is doing it (”women can’t write html”), etc.

I’ve decided to answer this person’s question in public, so that hopefully the next 10 people who were gonna email me asking if I’m real, might read this first.

Dear (insert name),

On the ‘net I write constantly about my personal feelings about bondage — in my blogs, forum, and yahoo group. In the rw community I’ve been active for about 12 years, playing at bondage parties and teaching bondage classes. On my sites you can read my early bondage diaries, and personal biographies, and there are a lot of pictures of me tied up by Jon where it’s pretty obvious the pictures were taken before and after we had bondage sex. I webmaster my own sites (poorly, I admit) in my own words.

Overall, I would say my presence on the internet and in the Scene is at the level of Publicly Obnoxious.

Yet I still regularly get emails from people asking me to respond individually, to prove that I’m for real. What more am I to write as proof, if they didn’t read any of the one-million self-absorbed words I already wrote?

So if you’ve somehow missed the fact that I’m an obnoxiously obsessed bondage freak, please go take a second look at my websites or something.

And don’t forget to read the words instead of just looking at the pictures.

Sunday, January 08, 2006
Current mood: reminiscent

Current faves (they seem to evolve & change over time) …and stuff

Fave gag: duct tape gag

Fave bondage position: for myself, frogtie (and second fave right now is strappado). For looking at other gals tied up, I like to see them in chair ties.

Fave bondage material: currently, a set of kinda-thin nylon rope we got

Fave suspension position: frogtie suspension

Fave hogtie position: got ya! I’m not big on hogties. Heh heh.

Browser homepage: my “what’s new” page at BedroomBondage, because I use all the links at the top and bottom of that page

Bondage places I visit every week: my bondage forum, my BB yahoo group, Jon’s AmericanDamsels group, Andre’s yahoo group, and the yahoo group for bondage photographers.

Last person I tied up: Alexis Taylor

Last time I got tied up: last week

Where I got tied up: in the bedroom on the mattress

My personal essentials for bondage sex: duct tape, rope, Reality (the woman’s condom), big honkin’ muscle-massage vibrator.

Usual noises during a bondage sex session: laughing, sound of ropes whipping around hitting the blanket while being applied, more laughing, sound of duct tape pieces being ripped off the roll, heavy breathing, gag noises of “mmf mmf mmf mmf mmf”.